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Himari slowly let herself calm down, closing her eyes and pinching the bridge of her nose. She really had to work on anger. It was one of the things that sort of hindered her from making friends and forming any type of close relationship with anyone in her squad. This made her think of her anger towards Arashi the first time she met him, which was a little uncalled for.
But, he was an asshole.
"Haha I thought you knew by now I live to piss the people I care about off…"
She shook her head, but she couldn’t stop the small smile that formed on her face, but she quickly turned away from the Lieutenant so he couldn’t see this. She wasn’t really used to showing any type of emotion other than anger, scared to let anyone in. But Katsuo was one of the people that made her smile, and she wanted to thank him for that-one day.
"SO! How are your Zanjutsu skills coming? You wanna go have a session out in the yard before I get called to the world of the living again? Oh.. Also Himari, have you talked to Tenzen yet, or are you still afraid?"•
She sighed again before slowly turning towards the blond, not really looking at him. In all honesty, her Zanjutsu still wasn’t good. At all. And this was one thing that angered her about herself and made her sad. What was wrong with her? Why couldn’t she be a good fighter? Why couldn’t she be a good swordsman like Arashi? Like her captain? Hell like anyone.
And of course he would bring up Captain Oda, the one person she has avoided the most. She felt like he didn’t like her, anyways. She felt like she was a waste of space. Undeserving of being a seated officer. What has she done? Eizoku, their third seat, did ten times more than she. He was even off doing missions when all Himari did was be anxious, hiding away.
Seeing the captain would sicken her.
”No, I haven’t talked to Captain Oda,” She spoke, casting her eyes to the ground. ”Haven't really seen much of him, really. You know this.”
She looked up as he ended his sentence. Not saying anything else.
y'know, Himari… if you ask Tenzen to train with you, I'm sure he'll do it, combat is one of his most favorite things in the world… despite what you might think. It might not be training like mine, where I show you some cool techniques and you practice em , but you'll learn something from him i'm sure… all for your survival out there. I mean the same for your other Division members, all you gotta do is ask em."
She as frustrated at this. She knew this. She knew she could ask Tenzen, she knew she could ask anyone else. But it was all about pride. She already felt sick knowing the possibility that Tenzen thought of her useless. The last thing she wanted to do was train with him, even though she knew it would solve a lot of her issues. Tenzen was a captain for god's sake, he knew way beyond Himari. She was one that loved to learn. But she also was someone filled with too much pride.
And asking other Division members would be the same. She didn’t want to face anyone’s judging eyes. She was comfortable with Katsuo. He was a friend. He was the only one she let her guard down for. Even though it was just a little.
She just watched him as he moved. Moving to the place he had pointed her to go. Every time it came to training, she was always nervous. Embarrassed of screwing up. So, as she watched Katsuo move back and forth on his feet, she stood there, like a scared baby doe. Her fingers slowly moved towards her zan, hoping feeling the halt of the weapon would give her some form of comfort.
”C’mon Himari, Let’s get started.”
At those words, he removed his twin blades. She didn’t even want to stand there long enough to see him finish the action. In a shooken breathe, she quickly Shunpo’ed away from the man. Shunpo was one thing she would always be comfortable with using. Getting away like a scared child as fast as she could was her specially.
But not today.
She quickly landed on her feet,now facing his back. She didn’t even think twice as she quickly pointed her shaking finger towards the man, her eyes focused as she shouted.
”Hadō #1. Shō (衝, Thrust)!
As she shouted this, a small flash of white light would dispel from the tip of her finger, quickly moving towards the Lieutenant in hopes of creating even more distance between them.